Take a bow

Our Final exam started this morning , 6th June 08. Here, it's called the "Government Exam" -in short - the gov exam. Consist of 3 part , started with the mcqs - which we did today , the next one will be the practical on the 16th June - followed by the viva on the 21 June - which also known as the liberation day for us the final year student.
The mcq exam took place at the university today . Since the uni itself located just about 3.5 km away for mi"casa" - it only took me around 15 mins by walking or 10 mins by bus. Had very little sleep last nite , I slept at 4 am. Then I woke up again by 630 pm. Since it's summer - the dawn started pretty early - subuh is at 250am. So, technically, I only had around 2 hours sleep prior to exam.

Well, the plan was - go to the exam - finish by 10am - then go back n sleep. It said that the exam should start at 830am. However, the state exam commisioners arrived pretty late at our uni - therefore the exam only started at 10am. I was so damn sleepy during the exam. My head was spinning and in my mind - all I could think about was my bed :P.

Eventually, the exam finished by 12 and I quicky ran back home to get some sleep. huhuh.... Well, the lesson we could learn here is - it's ok to get little sleep bf ur exam :P - should the exam started on time - I should have be back to sleep by 11pm. heheheh.. Well, when u set ur brain to get a rest at certain time , it'll automatically go to rest when the time comes. That what happened to me today. Me <---- pretty much is a robot now :P

anyway, about the previous entry - hehehe.. no worry. My head was just a bit messed up yesterday. Just my nonsense :P

Tomorrow - going to embassy for "makan-makan" .... sape nak ikut? JOM!!!!

Mumbling......

"I would rather do nothing than doing something that I hate "

Well , it used to be my principle of life. But then , this one doesnt work well when u live in the society or when u r in a relationship. If u hold tight to this " words of wisdom" - ur social life is pretty much "doomed".

Coz, when u r living in society or in a relationship - u have to learn to be flexible. U have to bend the rules. U have to follow the flow - so that u could bring a smile in others' faces :) - these are the unwritten rules of LIFE..... those who didnt follow the rules - become the hatred of the society.

But then - there's so much one could take , there's so much bending one could bear. When the bending is too much - it'll pass the threshold , it'll be broken.

Me? How do I deal with this society crap? ... Frankly , I'm not that good in this relationship thingy. I'm totally not the PR stuff. Sometimes I follow the rules , most of the times - I just follow my own rules.

I tried to be flexible to ppl around me and I tried my best. However , sometimes , when someone hit my "childish button" - I just cant take it anymore - then I become " myself" , the real me - a boy who's trapped in a man's body. Then , I'll become childish - the inconsiderate , selfish , unflexible kid.

There's one Malay saying which goes " hendak seribu daya , tak hendak , sejuta dalih" It's true and at the same time - it's bullshit. Yes, I could change to be the loveable doll for everyone - but deep down inside ,would I feel happy for myself?

There are times when we should take the bullets and there are times , we should duck and save ourselves. It may sound very selfish and it's. But the ugly truth is , being Mr Nice Guy - is really exhausting and it gets worse when ppl never appreciate what u have done.

Well, I'm not sure what the heck is hitting me tonite , maybe the pre-exam jitter , or maybe the hike in oil price...

whatever it is , in the end of the day , I DEFINITELY believe that I would rather be hated for who I am , than be loved from whom I'm not .....

Random Photos

I've not been out from my room for the past 2 days. Therefore - nothing much been happening. Well, actually there's something I've been addicted for the past 2 days - the mob wars on the facebook!

Yeah, this stupid game made me stuck in front of my laptops for the whole day. It's way more interesting than those medical books. That's for sure :P. I just joined the mob 2 days ago and rite now I'm at level 18 - that's pretty much impressing .... lalallaaaa......

Since I'm stucked to my laptop -I decided to clean up my phone memory card from all the photos and here they are ......

this is the typical food kiosk which u could found all over moscow city. There is no "warong kopi or "mamak stall" in moscow and the only place u can get cheap food in moscow is at these kiosks. Even the McDonalds here cost twice more expensive compared to Malaysia. 1 filet-o-fish costs about RM 8 in moscow.
Therefore - most of the time - we " poor" students settled with the cheap foods from the kiosks.... hehehehe....

Ok... next :P

Last monday nite- we had this so called - corridor SALE. Since we dont have any garage - we call it the corridor Sale instead :P The sale went well for some of us , me myself managed to sell a few stuff - mostly my books since they are very "heavy" to bring back to Malaysia. But, I'm still sending back some of the books thou. We managed to turn the corridor into the "Pasar Malam" for a few hours.... it was fun
Yup.... the bundle :) hehehehe.... These cloths costed us a bomb and we were selling them at very cheap price. We are planning to do this "corridor sale" again since we still have a lot of stuff for SALE.

ME? I sold most of my stuff already. My tv, my fridge, my kitchen cabinet, my microwave , my sound system , my 3 in 1 printer , my oven - all SOLD. The money I got from these stuff is more than enuf to pay for my cargo - sending back some stuff to Malaysia. But, I still have some winter jackets for sale... :)

Next :)

yeah... another photo of me and adam - huhuhuh.. why so sad adam? miss me already? I'll see u this weekend occay !

chiow belloo- wish me luck for my mcq final on this friday... La La La....

Viewer Discretion is advised

The following photos in this entry are pretty much "disturbing" for some people. Therefore - those who have "lemah semangat" , "nervous breakdown" , low self esteem , being dumped by a lesbian gf , coward , dumbass , gay and lactose intorelerance - please click the "X" button on the upper right side of the screen :)
I decided to check my secondary email - and I found these photos attached to one of the many unopened emails :P I choosed to open the email coz the title said - HUMAN FACTORY IN RUSSIA :)

So.... ENJOY :)

I'm pretty much sure that these photos were taken in Russia. Somewhere in the morgue or the pathology anatomy department. MAYBE - it just happened that on the day these photos were taken -the place was a bit busy , MAYBE a plane just crashed or one whole building full of people was intoxicated. OR maybe - the staffs took a long holiday break - MAYBE a month or 2 to go skiing at the ALPS and when they came back to the office - DUE WORK <--- which explain this piles of bodies. I've been to the morgues in moscow and they look exactly like these photos. Since Russia just emerged from the communism - they dont have the latest equipment to do the autopsy/organ harvesting so these photos are totally different from what u've seen in tv.
Even these old cute "nurses" look nothing like the hot babes in the CSI rite? ( maybe they used to be :P ) On top of that , they are still using the typewriters - not the high tech laptops :)
Opppssss... no explanation for this one ... dude.. may u rest in peace ...
Another busy day at the morgue - not the human factory obviously. BUT, if u think about it - nothing much different btwn all the morgues in the world. During autopsy - the bodies are being chopped and analysed until the last piece! No kidding. My advise - if u can avoid ur relative's dead body from undergo any autopsy - Please... dont let the body goes on to the table. Once the body being open up.... well... all I can say - it's ugly...

However , sometimes - u just need to let the lads in the morgue do their job. Autopsy is a very informative procedure and the most accurate diagnostic method.
Some of the useful organs might be harvested if the dead bodies - did registered to donate their organ/ or their relative decided to. Organ donation- is a nobel thing to do. There are many ppl out there who need new organs everyday and the list keep getting longer and longer. ISLAM didnt forbide organ donation. Morally - u r giving a new life to other ppl :)

PROTESSS

DEAR EJ :P

I'm shida's lawyer - ( representing my own GF ) , protesting ur decision for the 30,000 visitor competition that was being held in ur blog. As u can see in ur email - my gf had sent the email a few days ago - meaning , she is the truthful winner of the competition. Therefore , I had fowarded the "email" to the Chief Justice of Royal High Court and I would like to ask for a special panel/ royal commision to be formed to investigate and rec0nsider this case. I also would like this case to be review by the United Nation and WHO. Thank you :P

p/s - EJ <- we love u :P

The visitors :)

Yummyyyyyyylicious Rosemary chicken - thanks to the executive chef tina and sous chef yanti :) Lovely as it is! This lovely meal was our lunch at kak yan's house when we went to visit them yesterday.....( susah-susah aja :P )
me, tina, lisa n k-yan. Kak yan is adam's mommy and tina is kak yan sister.

It took 3 ppl to cut the chicken :P hehehehe... wasnt an easy job!

So, back to my LIFE :) Been busy preparing for the final exam. Yes - Indeed. This friday will be the 1st step of the final exam - the MCQs. Then, after a week rest/study week - we have to sit for the clinical practical. Then , the 3rd step comes the week after that - the viva! Viva La Bam :P

Therefore- nothing much been going on. Just staying inside my little boxy room for the whole day. Lucky I have this thing called "the internet" which keep me "alive" and connected to the outer world. For me - life without "the internet" seems to be - incomplete :)

There was time when "the internet" was considered as a luxury. Not everyone has the internet and only "rich" ppl could afford it. Those were the days when the main usages for internet were the MiRC , the hotmail/yahoo mail and the of course - to watch the free porn photos.

Yup, those were the days when the desktop needed the external modem ,no broadband and putting email on ur business card was considered "pointless and "POYO " . PLUS -getting 56.6Kb/s via the modem was considered "fast". Nowdays - even the streamyx broadband is considered a turtle ride.

Notice how much things have changed :) I wonder what the future will be... :) I wonder what MY future will be...

he's adam :)

My new crime partner - adam :) ehehhehe.. this super-duper hyperactive dude is my new fren in moscow ! Well Adam - let's the fun time begin... shall we? Unfortunately I dont have much time left in moscow - but it's occay! Let's enjoy the what we have to the fullest!

Adam's is Kak yan son. More stories about adam and his family at http://gurlzmystic.blogspot.com :) We went to their house for the so called " lawatan sambil belajar dan makan "! Thanks a lot kak yan n tina for the lovely hospitality! and guess what? We'll be back :p ( no doubt about that! ) hhehehehe...

More photos from Kak yan's house will be upload tomorrow.. Going to bed now... Happy Monday everyone... Me still in study week ( holiday :P ) and I'm not sure about malaysia.. is school holiday over yet? ... whatever it is - have a nice week!

Selamat Pengantin Baru Qistina

"SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU" to my dear cousin - Qistina :) - Semoga panjang umur dan berkekalan hendaknya.... aminnnnnnnnnnnnnn > Photo taken from 160-c

Me n qistina - we are very close cousin :) We were borned in the same year and now we are both gonna be doctors soon. However, one thing that seperates us now is that - she's married!!! I'm so happy for her.

Funny story , few years back - when everyone was busy asking us - who'll get married 1st , she said - Hannan will be first. Then ...

I said - me? no way... hahhaa.. wanna bet???
qistina - sure thing.... what's the stake?
I said - well... since we both gonna be doctors soon... might as well ask for something costly! haha
qistina - good ... good... totally agree!
I said - ok, whoever got married 1st ( btwn us ) , must sponsor 1 "hantaran"
qistina - just one?
I said - ok.. make it 2 then....
qistina - how about 3?
I said - Agreed!!!! DEAL!
qistina - yessssssssss... I'm getting 3 free "hantaran" in the future ! What's the mininum price for 1 "hantaran"?
I said - well... anything...
qistina - each must cost RM150 and above
I said - yeah... might as well.... make it more interesting!
Me - big smile :)

...and I'm still smiling now..... PLUS, the best part of this deal was - it took place in front of our parents and our grandparent. Therefore - lots of ppl know about this "bet" ... hahaa...

Anyway, again - to my dear cousin Qistina - I wish u all the best in ur future ok dear! - and I'm so happy that u are married :) not because I want to win the "bet" so much - just because I care :P ... hehehehehe... Sorry that I missed ur wedding day !!!

hye JUNE

31 may 08 , moscow - weather no good -> gloomy n rainy. What a boring saturday for me. Nothing much happened today - cook ,eat, study, internet-ting , do laundry , watch tv... and other boring stuffsssss...

Just realize that my fav month of the year has finally arrived :) My beloved JUNE :)
Why do I love JUNE so much! To start with - my bday is in JUNE! The exact date? I'll let u figure that out by urselves ( just a small hint for everyone to start collecting money to buy my bday gift! Dont tell me I didnt give u enuf time... hheheheee.... :P )

What else will happen in June.... let's see... ermm.. my mom's bday... lot's of my frens' bday and 1st june is technically the 1st day of summer. For the past 5 years , this is the month when I fly back to Malaysia ( not this year thou ). More? Yes ! there are lots more happening in June...

The big SALE will start soon in moscow, and the MEGASALE in Malaysia n Dubai will start in the end of the JUNE - in conjuction with my bday celebration.... ( not that I'm trying to say that my bday is the end of the JUNE )

Next... the EURO 08 will start soon... also in JUNE and not forgotten - my fav part of the year - the FINAL exams :) How could I miss this one rite? The most annoying part of JUNE.... Sigh...

There were 2 times in a row when my final exams happened to be on the same date of my bday. I mean , what were the chances of 2 very important event of my life happened on the 28th of June rite... ( opppsssssss ) Fortunately , so far - my bday party become my celebration after finishing my exams :)

Nevertheless - those were history now :) I'm really lookin foward for this year JUNE. I wonder what are the suprises!!! I'm hoping for the best JuNe in my life!!!

Hye JUne... dont u ever let me down... hehehe...... :P

Aquarium for SALE!

I'm selling the aquarium above :) If u are living in moscow and would love to buy an aquarium - fully equiped - PLS contact me!
I love this aquarium very much! Costed me a bomb. But I just dont care. How I wish I could bring this thing back to Malaysia with me.. sighh... But, I just need to let it go I guess....
Like the old saying goes " Patah tumbuh hilang berganti " ( correct me if I'm wrong) - But nowdays - in most cases - it's more like " x patah pon dah cari ganti " ... har har har...

Talking about the old saying :) , for those "comic enthusiasts" - u know.. the old comics - JUARA WIRA , Alam perwira .... those were the days ones... this old saying should sound familiar " Bila keranda dibawa, baru bercucuran air mata"... rite???
When I mentioned this one to shida, she thought I made that up... I told her, it's an old saying !

One more thing, could someone explain to me what "Bitas" means ??? I "used" to know about it ... last time... but I forgot :P... refresh PLEASE :)


I just found out that my eldest bro has a blog too. Feel free to visit his blog at http://sukyme.blogspot.com/ . Yes, his name is sukyme. Not many ppl in Malaysia have that same name :) If u google or yahoo search the name "sukyme" - all the results that come out has to do with him... Our family is very special - indeed!

Anyway, WHILE I'm busying myself studying for my FINAL - my family back home ( in Malaysia) is busy preparing for my dear cousin's wedding reception today. How I wish I could be there too. Unfortunately , I wont be able... coz I have this thing.. well , some might call is responsibility while others called it "liability" - when u combine both name - it becomes "the degree"

Heck, I dont have any idea what am I blabbing rite now. My head is spinning.. need to go to bed.... chioaaaazzzzzzzzz

Porsche Panamera

Could u name me any 4 doors sedan that looks better than this masterpiece???? :) Yes, this is the new Porsche - the porsche panamera! Someone - PLS>.. and please buy me this car! I want this one!!! I would sell my soul for this piece of art! ... hahahah.... nobody would buy my soul thou !

Well... I'm a car enthusiast , and this car really made me gone mad! I need to change the old man saying I guess....

" buy a girl a dress , she'll look pretty for a nite , buy a man a porsche panamera , she'll look beautiful , stunning , sexy, damn gorgeous "I'll be ur slave " for the rest of her life! "

the bigger picture

I went to this adidas store today - was lookin for the champions league shirt :) It is way cheaper to buy the shirt after the final whistle :P

Not feeling good today. I think my asthma is coming ... havent reached yet - But I could feel it comin... maybe the plane is on transit somewhere :P The last visit was 5 months ago. I believe the asthma is coming becoz I played at the open air court yesterday and I had a very cold shower after that. What was I'm thinking. Sigh.... Currently , no hot water supply to the whole building due to the maintanance works - only the cold freezing water is available. By cold water - I mean.. it's damn cold... maybe around 5 degree... close to becoming ice! Amazing having shower with that kind of water - it's more like a suicide.

Nevertheless .... cold water wont keep me from living my life :) Funny thing happened today...
I was chatting with a fren.... telling her that I'm selling my stuff..

me : I'm selling my rice cooker too ...
she : is it... how much are u selling it?
me : around RUB XXX
she : what brand is it?
me : apple ....
she : owh... ok.. I'll discuss with my sister ...
me - laughing my heart out...
me : yeah... it's the i-rice cooker... with wi-fi
she : *&%^*&%(^($!$%$!^

hehehehe... I had my fun. Sorry dear... no hard feeling occay!

This is one of the shirts I bought from the adidas store. When I got home - I realized , I bought one extra shirt. Maybe I should make a quiz/competition in my blog and give away this shirt to the winner? What do u think? heheheh.. but.. what kind of quiz then?
My dear cousin is getting married today. I wish her - Selamat Pengantin Baru! . Unfortunately I wont be there for the reception. ( nothing new! ) I actually missed all my cousins' wedding so far :) + my brother's wedding too. This medical degree better be worthy!

Anyway, something to think about today - A very wise man once said that...

" You buy a girl a dress , then she looks pretty for one night ; but when u buy a boy a ps3 , she looks pretty for LIFE! "

Streetball.ru

After being postponed for 3 times due to bad weather - we finally reached this sacred place for all basketball players in moscow :) Located at the Borodrovi Gory ( near the Luzhniki stadium where the champions league final being played ) - the courts are located under the bridge. How cool is that. The best part is - the courts are open to public 24/7. Even better - the court floor - is rubber! ( must be damn expensive to build these courts! )Not the hard cement ! Meaning - u hardly get any scratch or wounded should u felt down.

The "uncles" of the RSMU and MMA basketball players! We've been playing basketball together for years even thou we study in different universities. 6 years ago - we can play non stop for 2 hours - effortless! Nowdays - after 15 mins game started , we needed to change players already!
Me n Jed ! Last time we used to play together against the russians at the PFU public courts. But then , as we both get busy with our academic ( :P ) - we hardly see each other again. The final game we played together - was 3 years ago. Well - we actually played against each other in the intervarsity game. After that - I retired from basketball for a while , until today - we finally rocked the court again!One thing I love about the public court - u have a lot of challengers! Today , we played against a couple of russians teams. We won some games, lost a few. Not bad for a group of old uncles! hahaha.. .. Frankly , today was my 1st competative game after 3 years - and rite now - I'm getting the after effect or the complication. My whole body is aching. My right pinky finger is in a lot of pain - my legs , refusing to move around - my back , asking me to lie down until tomorrow.... sighhhh...
It would be nice if I could play basketball everyday. Keep me fit. Good physical leads to excellent mind! During my school times - I played basketball every evening. Even during the SPM period. I just couldnt study in the evening and I need to sweat in the evening , hence my brain would be fresh to study later on. However, nowdays - after playing basketball in the evening - I need at least a whole day to recover :P .... hahaha.. But then , I believe - if I could do this routine ( playing basketball ) every evening in the future - my stamina will be back to normal... I just need my time to adapt. After all , I'm not that old yet ...... I'm still a young kid... oooyyeaaahhhh!

P/S - i love u .... hehehe.... oooppsss.. P/s - sorry for the low quality photos - taken using the phone cam :P

welcome back sunshine!

After a few days of rain and gloomy weather - the sunshine is back in moscow :) Finally - it's time to go out from the nest :P Staying home during the cold weather was really unhealthy for me. The cold weather had increased my appetite - leading to excessive consuming of foods ! NO good at all. Finally tomorrow I have the chance to do a bit of exercise. Going out to play basketball ... anyone wanna join me? Let's rock the court!

Currently busy selling my stuffs ... my tv, my fridge , my kitchen cabinet , my microwave , my fan , my cupboard , my printer , my aquarium - well basically most of my stuffs. The only thing I'll be bringing back home are my laptop , my clothing , some personal stuff and books. Half are already SOLD and the money I got from that will be used to pay for the shipping cost to bring back other stuffs. However, should I manage to sell everything - there will be some extra cash for me to fool around - by fooling around - I mean shopping!!! hahahha...

Jose Maurinho gave his view about chelsea performance this year - the season when chelsea ALMOST win the premiership and almost win the champions league. He said - ALMOST is nothing and he said avram grant performance was a dissapointment! I couldnt agree more. Personally, I like Jose - his "interesting" personality brought some colors to the premiership last time. But then, when he was replaced by the boring israelian - chelsea started to lose their "edge". I hate avram .... simply because he's an israelian :) My frens came up with "the tortoise" nickname for him... suit him well!

ALMOST is nothing :) It's so true. If u are not the winner - u r the loser! This applies not just in football - it's in our daily life too :) Some choose not to participate , choose not to be involved - with the thought - if u dont fight , u wont lose. However , by choosing not to be tangled in anything - u are the first loser! Whatever it is - never ever go down without a fight. Keep trying hard for what u want , keep struggling, and keep striving! Someway, somehow - if u try hard enuf - eventually u'll come out as a winner!!!! Never ever give up!

Russian State Medical University

Finally , after 3 days journey - I reached the university library :) How far is it actually the library from my castle? According to the google map - about 1.4km! That far! I have not been to the university for quite a while... this year.. only been to the university 4 times. 2 times for the visas stuff , 1 time to take the hygiene exam and 1 time to the library. So, technically- yesterday was my 5th time visit to the university! Yeayyy......

This is the RSMU Library - yup - this fancy library - with mural all around it! Cool isnt it? Trust me... the librarians are colder! ( not cool-er! ) The real plan was to go to the library on friday , but then -it so happened on that particular day - I was so busy thinking of what to do during the weekend :P - therefore the plan was postponed. But, I managed to get my head together this morning and finally I was able to see the university again! Well - miracle does happened rite? Since all the class and lectures for the 5th and final years students are conducted in the hospitals - we hardly go to the university anymore. The hospitals are our university :)
Nothing much to be said about my university - except for its great history :) The university is already more than 100 years old - and finally they started doing some renovation to the buildings. The prettiest thing about the RSMU university - is this big mural :) It does gave me goose bumps everytime I take a close look at this mural .... will write more about my beloved university in the future entry .... ( another promise?? ... hahaha.... )

Moscow Sate!

She's not a ghost ... yet :P Just a model for our home made sate. That's Lee Lee - han teo gf - ( just to make it clear :P) - Anyway, it has been raining in moscow for the past.... 5 days I reckon. It's getting cold again here. This morning - I woke up to found out the temperature had gone down to 5 degrees again. Well , technically - 5 degrees is considered not that cold in Russia - but then , it's near summer now and the temperature should be around 15-25 degrees during May. What can I say, thanks to the global warming rite :) The rumour said that the polar bears and the whales are doing mass protest at the artic rite now - against the global warming :P - wish them luck! It took more than 1 billion ppl ( and animals ) to cause global warming. If we dont have 1 billion ppl ( and animals , cows especially ) who care enuf to start taking care of the earth - the global warming is unstoppable! ( I heard that the cows just dont care about the pollution at all )

Wow.... what a long boring lecture!

Therefore - since the weather wasnt that friendly for any outdoor activities during the weekend - we decided to have a little "indoor picnic" . The real plan was to go for a drive - but then, none of us have car here in moscow - unsuprisingly :) What about the car rental then? - the car rental in moscow , is a bit "crazy". Remind me to write about the car rental in moscow in my future entry

... ok ok ... back to the picnic..


Since the lads were pretty much bored with the same "good-old fashion" bbq menu - we decided to try something different and I suggested sate! I was just fooling around to start with but the lads were very excited with my crazy idea. I told them - doing sate is a messy job and I'm gonna need a lot of helps ! hahaha... Guess what , the nite b4 the bbq - Por, LeeLee , Han and Jeya came to room to help me and shida preparing the sate and the "kuah kacang" They were very excited coz it was their first time doing sate in moscow. Therefore - I let them to do all the jobs - I just supervised .... For me and shida - that was our 3rd time doing sate in moscow and last weekend was the 1st one we did for free!

The 1st time - was 4 years ago - made sate for the embassy during hari raya celebration - good money :) how much? it's a secret. 2nd time - was last year - Really good money even thou it took us a week to recover from the fatigue. 3rd time - no fatigue at all , coz the lads helped a lot :) and I have to admit , the 3rd time was the best one coz there was no pressure at all -purely for fun.

These are the sate :) Yummmmyyyyy.... One thing I really hate about making sate - the smoke made during the grilling. We basically smoked the whole floor while grilling the sate. But, who cares rite ( except for the neighbours! ) - the good taste of the real malaysian food that matter the most. Everyone enjoyed the sate very much and those lads who made the sate also were satisfied with their hardwork. Let's do this again guys!

Faris Petra

My beloved secondary school - SMS Tengku Muhamad Faris Petra :) I had a million of lovely memories there - that was the place who teached me a lot , the place where the dreams were made and persued.

My laptop has becomed so slow lately. Well, it's a bit "aged" already , but I loved my current laptop - my acer :) Maybe not the most expensive or the most beautiful laptop one could have , but it's my 1st laptop and I love it :) However, since the hard disk is a little bit FULL - it becomes very slow and pretty much annoying. Therefore, I decided to do a little bit of cleaning up , hoping that the speed will be back to normal.

First thing first - I burned all my photos collection on the cd. During that boring+slow process - I stumbled into these few photos , my moscow memoirs. I know for the fact that - once these photos go inside the cd - I hardly see them again. These are the choosen ones. Found a few photos of me and zak. Zak is a fren of mine - we came from the same school - FARIS PETRA , and now we are studying at the same university.

10 years ago - while both of us were still busy training basketball every evening under the hot sunshine in Faris Petra - none of us would have thought of studying overseas. It seemed to be an untouchable dream . Frankly speaking , when I was in form 1 - never thought that I could be a medical student - never came across my mind that I could be one . Back then - the main target was to get 9a's in every final exams and thank God - I managed to do that since form 1. ( masuk bakul angkat sendiri sket! )

I still remember -when I was in form 2 - I was so amazed with my seniors who got 6 aggregate in their SPM. In my mind - I thought I could never do that. Then, when the teachers mentioned about the seniors who managed to get scholarship from Petronas , from PNB, from JPA n MARA to go overseas - I was just praying that my SPM result would be good enuf for me to get a JPA scholarship to do the engineering degree at the local university. It was until I got my PMR result - then I know what I wanted to be and I realized that I could be as good as my seniors.

But then , a dream itself - was just not good enuf. After a successful PMR exam - my form 4 was a bit disasterous ! The honeymoon "form 4" nearly killed my future. My academic performance took a " deep dip". I was in form 4 as I was a bit busy with my extra curricular activities and a few other non extra curricular activities which I shouldnt mention here :P . Those non academical-stuff that I did - left a big scar in my record book . I wasnt able to balance my studies and my "non-studies" . However , I was lucky to realize about it before I entered form 5. I still remembered my english language teacher , Pn Rozie - she was the one who gave me the wake up call. One afternoon , she called me into the staffroom and gave me a long lecture of how much I had changed personally and how much my studies had been affected. That was the turning point in my life. I somehow - with the helps from the teachers and my frens - managed to get myself together , resetted my mind , and focussed back on my core business - to study. I have to admit that my form 4 final year exam result wasnt as impressing as my other final year results. It kinda " too little too late" for me to save my form 4.

In form 5 - I tried so hard to get back into the "best students" list. It wasnt easy since I was still busy with my basketball team and a few other extra-co activities. I retired from the debate team to give more time for my studies at that year ( yes, I choosed basketball over debate ) Thank God, everything pretty much went well except for the part I was hospitalized for a few days during the SPM trial exam. Luckily not during the real SPM exam. During that year also ( in form 5 ) I knew that I wanted to be a doctor and I was praying to get the scholarship to futher my study oversea. Alhamdulillah .... 6 years later - here am I ... waiting for my graduation day.....

Looking back at those time - wow.... I couldnt believe that I finally ... so close to my dream of being a doctor.

That was my short story , those were the days , those were the history , my history. Not to impress anyone - but just a reminder to myself - to keep working hard , to keep struggling for my future. I had gone thru a lot to give up everything now. I have everything to lose...

What the REAL docs said :) part 2

Regarding my previous entry , here's a brilliant comment from a senior doctor ( he's now a specialist in HUSM)

u can visit his blog at http://evolusimedic.blogspot.com

Dr rizhan said...
dearest young doctors

1/ dont worry - as i have mentioned before -> as a senior doctor - i have never judged a junior doctor based on their place @ country of graduation. Its individualised. What i look for for a houseman is commitment and attitude, then knowledge. I believe that if u have good commitment and attitude than you have sufficient armouries to be a good doctor. I believe that many specialists now have this kind of perception okay....so hannan (and others)...this is all i expect from u all, and i hope that we can work in a harmonious and effective relationship if we are ever put in the same hospital ....I pernah ada HO yang datang kerja lambat dari i...kalau sekali dua understandable takpe ni dua tiga kali seminggu - so yang ni memang carik pasal le...and maybe ur senior edwin tu ada similar problem i dun know.....so itule example2 dia ok.

2/ enjoy - enjoy - enjoy - enjoy masa ur student. nothing wrong with that as long as u never neglect ur responsibilities to acquire sufficient knowledge to be a doctor. I dulu masa kat NZ he he outdoor seekers and compulsive gamers hu hu - tak payahle detailkan zaman muda muda i tu he heh....so balance kena betul..dah jadi junior doctors nanti tak banyak masa nak enjoy so masa ni take the opportunities.

3/ Just remember - apa kerja yang kita buat ni satu ibadah....so niat kena betulkan ..bukan kita berlagak nak jadi doktor cuma kita niatkan segala kerja kita untuk ibadah , then i rasa kita akan enjoy kerja kita more..4/ JUST MY NINE CENTS NOT MY NONSENSE.............TAKE CARE,

Thank you Dr Rizhan :) Appreciate it a lot!

My reply

"Muss said...
bro look like u enjoy gilaa.... u from moscow university bro???? i like to warn u bro ...there a fellow name Dr Edwin Jude .... the worst ever dr produced by moscow university currently working in alor setar bro...if ur standard is like him ...u better study hard bro... else u comeback to malaysia just like pain in the ass bro ....to other doctors here.study hard bro ...jangan main main
May 23, 2008 11:03:00 AM"

Again, how I hate to do this. In a way, I could just delete the comment above , however - I couldnt sleep well tonite if I just leave this matter hanging unreplied.

To start with , it would be more appropriate - if u could give ur real name and contact should u want to give any statement or comment in my blog. Easier for me and the other readers to ask for affirmation and conformation should there is any "questionable" issue. For instance , like the comment above from muss - I dont know who are u? Maybe he's a doctor, maybe she's a nurse or maybe he's just a patient - no one know for sure . It would be nicer if u could identify urselves sir/madam :)

Secondly , I'm not denying that Dr Edwin was a student in moscow. Nonetheless , the performance of one graduate doesnt represent the university as a whole. Maybe the medical universities in moscow arent the best in the world and here we are studying in Russian Language instead of english. However, I believe - the graduates from moscow do have what it takes to be a doc. The universities here are recognized worldwide and FYI I'm a JPA scholar - meaning the malaysian government does recognized our university. Not saying here that we are really excellent medical students - some might be and some might not be so good. But, the main point is - I personally think that it's "unfair" to label the university based on one graduates performances.

I'm one of the JPA pioneer group here in moscow. We are the 1st group sent by the JPA to study in Russia. Hopefully, all of us will be graduating this summer and then go back to malaysia to serve the country. I have to admit, there are a lot of differences btwn malaysian n russian system and we might need a little time to get used to that. However, in general - we do have the knowledge. Needless to say here that, no matter how good u are as a student , doesnt mean that u'll be a great doctor. ( that's what Dr Natrah said before here! ) Therefore - to all doctors in Malaysia , " berikan kami tunjuk ajar , mana yang salah - harap betulkan."


SIGHHHHH............

Ok, next!

Maybe all u see/read from my blog are just fun and games all week long for me. Just play , write blog and no study. Honestly , what u see/know about me from reading this blog - is just 5% of me ( unless u have been reading this blog from the beginning ... )

I started writing blog with because I want to have something else to think about instead of my boring life as a medical student. Yes, being a med student is pretty much a boring job. Should I decided to write about my real daily life in every entry - it will be like this ...

"... woke up early in the morning, had shower - ate breakfast while reading some notes, took the bus , then the metro. Did some revision on the metro - until reached the hospital. Evening , went back home ... cook dinner , study then off to bed..... "

that's my real life and I know it's damn boring. The blogging part is in the middle of the studying and b4 sleep. There's no point blogging about it everyday - even me myself feel like vomiting just reading about it. Therefore - I choosed to blog about the interesting part of my life. Sometimes, should I have some free time - I went out and have a little bit of fun. That are the parts u read in my blog. The parts when I was so tensed with my exams and how difficult it's actually to be a med student - I wouldnt be bothered to blog about it anymore ( I used to blog about it last time and it was lame ) coz - blogging supposedly make me feel better and I WANT MY BLOG TO BE MY HAPPY PLACE , a place when i look at it, I could smile and forget about the "difficult" part of my life. Therefore , pls dont judge my personal life based on what u read here - it's really just a small part of me.

Celebration!

Lovely day even thou it has been raining since morning till evening. Maybe it's the tears of the chelsea fan. Get a grip will ya? The season is over and Man Utd is a clear winner. Be a gentleman and salute the champ!

It has been a quite day for me. A quite celebration day since my outdoor plan has been cancelled. Supposed to go out and play basketball - but the gloomy rainy weather stopped us. Not a good idea to go out during kind of weather - could easily get infected by flu especially. Hopefully the sunny and warm weather will be back soon enuf - therefore my weekend plan no need any reschedule.
me and zak were "karaoke-ing" at the CPL festival at the Playstation booth. We drawed quite a number of crowd to the booth ... hahahaha...
ameer managed to capture this photo when I was singing. The girl beside shida was singing along with me ... hahah... good times :) In the future , I would tell my grandchildren - " ur grandpa once sang his heart out at the red square ! "

Tomorrow gonna be quite a busy day for me. Need to run to the hospital early in the morning to get my credit. Then, need to rush to the library to get some books my coming final exam.. then.. maybe if the weather is fine - join the bbq.

My football fever is pretty much over until the next season starts. Not really interested in the coming Euro Cup since my fav team -England , failed to qualify! The best thing about watching football is - to tease the loser's fan! That's the beauty of the game. However, the teasing has its limit and in the end of the day - it's just a game. U can do a naked dance if ur team win , but u need to be smart at the same time. It might backfire! However , if u are a man utd fan - u need no worry coz man utd is the best team !

I love futbal. It does come to my mind - since it's impossible for me to be a pro football player, maybe I just do what Abramovich did. Well, obviously I dont have that much money. However , should I have some money , I would love to buy a local Malaysian Club , for example - Kelantan. Then, bring all the ex- famous player ( it's more logical! ) for example - Andy Cole and Yorke. Even thou these players maybe not the best in the field - they could attract the crowd which is very important for the revenue! At the same time , they could help improving the skills and technique of the local players. It's a win win situation. The fans get to watch the world class futbal everyweek , the owners of the clubs could make a lot money and maybe the Malaysian football team could start winning ! Well... that's just one of my sky high drem...... the world - it's all about money!