the same old question.....

since i became i doctor....
i have been asked the same question ... over and over again...
and this question commonly asked by the medical students....
< Dr Hannan .... honestly.... how do u feel being a doctor >

and my answer has changes a few times as times goes by...

when i first became a doctor..
during my housemanship...
my answer was  " being a doctor is like a living hell"
i even advised them to not being a doctor
i have my reason
and yes..
at that time... , it was killing me being an intern at busy general hospital
i have no life..
but in hospital...

nonetheless.
as i finished my housemanship..
and now i am a legally medical officer..
life as a doctor has changed

during housemanship... i dont make decision..
i follow orders only
and that was no fun
but it was for my own good.
i knew very little to decide between life and death

and now thing has changed
as a medical officer
i have to make the life saving or otherwise decision..
and .... it felt really good when my patient came out alive
and it hurts a lot when someone died...
all of these.. make my daily life.. more interesting
rather just go to work everyday..
following other orders for every single little thing..

so right now...
how do i feel being a doctor
the answer would be.... i feel good... i love saving life..
and i look foward to go to work every single day
... except weekend... i need my day off too...