Monday, November 08, 2010
gosh.. sorry for the silence for the past few days .. or weeks
i'm very very busy lately
busy as a doctor
busy searching for happiness
busy looking more money
busy with everything
how i wish i'm a baby again
no need to think about everything..
look at umar ( my nephew )
he could be whatever he wants
he could laugh all day.... cry all day..
sleep all day
sometimes, i just felt empty inside
despite of everything..
i felt there is a lot more waiting for me out there
and yet , i couldnt reach it
yes, it sound greedy and ungrateful
but that is just typical me..
i always want the best...
and that makes me crazy...
i always want to be the best
and that give me big headache
i wish i could just follow the flow of my life
but i cant
i cant stand the fact that my friend is driving a ferrari
and yet i'm still struggling to pay my monthly car loan..