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Sunday, November 23, 2008

being a doctor?

to my dear readers - I'm deeply sorry , no updates from me for ages. FIY , I got posted at the OnG ward at HKB, not at the surgical department.
So, for the past 1 week - I've been seeing a lot of ladies.

How's my life nowdays ? ..... like hell....

no kidding.... being a h/o at the Labour Room -isnt as fun as I thought it would be. Life has been very depressing lately.

Do I love my job rite now? .... not really ...

Always think about quiting from be a doctor , everyday. No kidding. Luckily I still have the "inner voice" which kept me going. Being scolded, being screwed .... it's my daily routine. As a H/O - we have no honour , no pride , nothing...

I felt useless, I felt stupid, I felt like crying... gosh... it's very depressing....
Life is ... well.. I have no LIFE rite now...


Dear God - Please give me the strenght to keep going... God Please....

16 comments:

Latifah said...

Nan, sometimes the feelings of dissapointment and regrets are common for any kind of circumstances. As the saying goes life is like a wheel.... what goes around comes around, you may be at the bottom and anytime you may be at the top. And some obstacles can hinder your dreams.

You've gone through med sch for the last 6 yrs and now you've just started internship. Obviously being new in the practice will be difficult, but as time goes by I am sure everything will settle down. In our mind we wanted the best of everything, nevertheless the truth can be very tough sometimes.

Knowing you being a cheerful person, I am sure you have the determination and courage to be able to outcome whatever the obtacles may be. Being your persistent reader, I believe in you and of course all your other readers would think the same as well. May Allah be with you dear bro....Amin.

Me, Mrs Taj said...

uishh jgn la mcm ni...takkn nk quit kot cuz ditempatkan kat O&G. juz pk u kije untuk berbakti pada masyarakat..doc ni mmg satu kerjaya yg mulia tau and also dipandang tinggi!! sabarla bro..ceria2 la slalu...y dun u meet kak shida... ;) she can cheer u up..

p/s kak shida, tlg ketuk kepala dr nan ni..

oldtown~Smell the Roses said...

Salam, lama xdrop by sini. Akak setuju kata2 Latifah.
byk2 bersabar n take this as challenge! kalau asyik di takat yg sama, bila kita nak berubah, right? sekali skala kena tukar gear.All these obstacles akan mematangkan diri Hanan.Be strong eh!

Good Luck bro!

neo@sufe said...

erm..pity u doc..but this is only early stage..well u have to make ur dad proud ok..neway mana2 bidanng2 pun begining mmg rasa mcm2 but.nanti dah lama2 u will be ok..
newayy...good luckk

hUdArLiNg said...

bersabar lah =] tak lama lagi hbs la tu.

waliz said...

be patient hannan (yeah very easy to said than done i know) u will get through this..maybe u r not really prepare for the reality..but whatever it is pls think ab yr parents and your beloved one tht has very high hope on u..maybe u will feel better?

liza said...

Allah tidak menguji hambanya diluar batas kemampuan mereka...Setiap apa yg berlaku ada hikmah disebaliknya...Bersabarlah...

natrah said...

Huh sian le pulak..takpe semua doc kat m'sia ni kena lalui semua tu...sabar nan, winner never quit and quiter never win...u pejam je mata redah je semua tu for the nxt 2 yrs...sabar byk2 and lepas tu life is better :)

Gorgeous Ol' Eve Loves Vanilla. You? said...

I'm sure you have a strong personality, spirit and heart to counter them all :)

Wahidah said...

sbr nan...1st posting kt O&G pulak tu..mmg satu 'permulaan' yg amat2 la adventerous...but yakinlah u will overcome it...but it take time kay

hani said...

hannan..
don't give up...permulaan kerja mcm tu la..mmg susah sbb sebelum ni kita tak nampak apa itu realiti keja..so, mcm mana susah pun,one day nanti ia akan bagi 1001 kemanisan dalam hidup kita...

ms sy mula2 start keje mcm tu gak..3 bulan pertama sy rasa sy ni mmg x tau satu benda pun, tp bila dah lama2 pastu tabahkan hati, insyaAllah kita leh atasi sume tuh...

kuatkan hati k...jgn sesekali give up..ingat tu..hehehee..smile!..:)

Ted Baker said...

Good luck!

.:y a n a h a s h i m:. said...

waaa. teruk sangat ke... i believe..dlm truk2 mesti ade sweetnye.. if not now.. mybe later.. 4 sure..

p.s. all the best.. keep strong!!!

yanacomot

sue said...

pity on u. i truly understand ur difficulties. being hospitalized due to my pregnancy for almost 1 week, then admitted again for delivery, i can c sometimes all h/o really really busy like nobody business, working round the clock, even dun have time to open their fasting from 1 labour room to another labour room, sometimes being scold by the consultant because forgetton or didnt bring the notebook to jotdown whatever he/she said infront of the patient. so i do understand. but it is ok, we as a patient we really need ur services and help to keep us embrace our life and be strong, so u as a doctor have to be more stronger than we do...okay?

peej said...

maybe u rasa mcm ni sebab u jd h/o je terus masuk ong..mmg susah..jonet dpt utk 3rd..after orto n pediatric x silap..

if u keje ngan KKM mmg mcm ni..after abis h/o try masuk tentera mcm jonet ke..i tgk sekarng die relax je..cuma die risau..sebab takut otak berkarat..sebab kerja lite2 ajo..

before jonet h/o ade jumpa senior die baru nak masuk tentera..after 2-3 year kerja ngan KKM..die masuk tentera sbb die kata x puas hati mcm mana tah..kerja penat..mcm tu la..

so apa2 pun hope u're ok now..xpe..if ade off..sile la enjoy2 sikit2..maybe bole release tension ke apa.

sorry..comment gile panjang..

mummysyafie said...

lat labour room ke hannan? mak aii..sib baik tak kena kat putrajaya..kalau idak, kena fikir 4-5 kali akak nak pegnen lagi..huhuhuhu