my darkest moment

my first day in pangkor ( 2 days ago ) wasnt what I had in mind. During my btn course in sepang , I had a fever. Then the cough came. Apparently, the hostel in sepang - was very dusty.
I almost forgot that I have asthma coz I havent got the attack for quite a while. The last attack was a year ago. Hence I didnt bring any meds for my asthma.

On the final day at btn - my condition got worse. No meds or whatsoever, we were rushing to go to the pangkor island coz we need to be at the resort by night time. On the bus on the way to lumut jetty from sepang - it was my worse journey ever. I would have trade anything to get a puff of ventolin at that moment.

We reached the lumut jetty by 6 pm. I walked around the jetty looking for pharmacy or clinic - to no avail. On 6.30pm - I was on the ferry to pangkor island. I cant even enjoy the beautiful enviroment coz my lungs really hurted a lot.

By the time we reached our resort , I asked the hotel management to take me to the nearest pharmacy, but at that time - all the pharmacy in pangkor island was already closed. Lucky me the driver was kind enuf to take me to the community hospital.

As soon as I reached the emergency room - I told them I'm a doctor and I needed the nebulizer NOW! The nurses quickly took me the treatment room. They checked my bp - 140/90 ( my normal bp is 110/80 ) - HR 125 per sec. Technically I should be admitted. There were no doctor in charge that nite, only a MA. He took care of everything. Since it was weekend - the hospital pharmacy was closed and they couldnt get me the ventolin inhaler. So, after getting the treatment , I decided to to go back to the hotel.

The next morning ( yesterday ) , I woke up and I could feel my respiratory airways was not in the good condition yet. The fever was still there. Regardless of all that , I gathered all my energy - concentrated every little strenght that I got , I braced myself to join the opening session of my induction course at the ballroom.... and it was my stupidest mistake ever...............

to be continued.....