I lied?

During my interview with kosmo last year,
The reporter asked me how do I deal with my patient death

I could not remember my exact answer ..

But here is the truth

How do I feel?

I feel like crap when my patient died
I feel like shit even thou it was not me who caused the death
Regardless who was at fault
My patient is still my patient

Yes, my mom told me ... No need to be so sorrow and sad
When the time come, we all have to go

Yet and still
I feel horrible

So yes
Life as a doctor is suck
Either we successfully save a life
Or otherwise would happen

That otherwise is death


We are no God
We just do our best
We always do our best
But sometimes
God just wants to remind us that he is in control