we did the best we could..

today, has not been the best day of my life...
when I started doing my morning round at the medical ward today...
my specialist came to me... and she came very early today..
and she said "I'm so sad..."
I asked her, what's wrong? , she replied.. " the little girl is dead"

I was shocked to death...

a few days ago, a little girl, - was brought to the emergency room with severe shortness of breath plus other sign and symptom , - she's a known case of SLE, who defaulted follow up and treatment with multiple history of admission to ward...

... due the severity of her condition , she was intubated and she was admitted to ICU, where she received the best treatment we could provide.

nonetheless, the SLE has effected other organs, the kidneys were failing.. the heart.. the lungs... all pretty much not functioning they way they should be...

But, God does work in very mysterious way...
after 2 days in ICU, she got better.. the condition improved...
she was able to open her eyes again but still intubated..

and seeing her condition improving, we decided to sent her to GH for further management...
and I was the one who accompanied her all the way to the GH..
all the doctors here were very happy about her improvement..
and we were hoping she would get even better...

along the journey from my hospital to GH , she looks happy even thou she was still intubated..
the vital signs were normal thru out the journey... there were no problem at all..
I was doing the manual bagging all by myself ... never even let the nurse to take over... even thou it was very tiring...

when we reached there, at the GH, I passed over the case to the specialist in charge..
she was stable at the time.. and before i left, i went to her to say good bye, and smiled and blinked her eyes twice...
i told her, i'll see u when u get better...

and that was the last time i saw her face..

this morning, i received the news, she passed away last night at GH..