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Friday, June 06, 2008

Mumbling......

"I would rather do nothing than doing something that I hate "

Well , it used to be my principle of life. But then , this one doesnt work well when u live in the society or when u r in a relationship. If u hold tight to this " words of wisdom" - ur social life is pretty much "doomed".

Coz, when u r living in society or in a relationship - u have to learn to be flexible. U have to bend the rules. U have to follow the flow - so that u could bring a smile in others' faces :) - these are the unwritten rules of LIFE..... those who didnt follow the rules - become the hatred of the society.

But then - there's so much one could take , there's so much bending one could bear. When the bending is too much - it'll pass the threshold , it'll be broken.

Me? How do I deal with this society crap? ... Frankly , I'm not that good in this relationship thingy. I'm totally not the PR stuff. Sometimes I follow the rules , most of the times - I just follow my own rules.

I tried to be flexible to ppl around me and I tried my best. However , sometimes , when someone hit my "childish button" - I just cant take it anymore - then I become " myself" , the real me - a boy who's trapped in a man's body. Then , I'll become childish - the inconsiderate , selfish , unflexible kid.

There's one Malay saying which goes " hendak seribu daya , tak hendak , sejuta dalih" It's true and at the same time - it's bullshit. Yes, I could change to be the loveable doll for everyone - but deep down inside ,would I feel happy for myself?

There are times when we should take the bullets and there are times , we should duck and save ourselves. It may sound very selfish and it's. But the ugly truth is , being Mr Nice Guy - is really exhausting and it gets worse when ppl never appreciate what u have done.

Well, I'm not sure what the heck is hitting me tonite , maybe the pre-exam jitter , or maybe the hike in oil price...

whatever it is , in the end of the day , I DEFINITELY believe that I would rather be hated for who I am , than be loved from whom I'm not .....

11 comments:

suw said...

hike in oil price? kat sane pon terasa gak ker? ;p

meen said...

hurmmm..early syndrome of exam fever..huhu good luck ek hannan

~ mizzAmy ~ said...

~ tension ngan exam la tuh. kat sana pun terasa gak ke ngan kenaikan harga minyak?

study smart okeyh, kalo hard2 sangat takut bertambah tension. good luck!! ~

AzAzura said...

what do you mean? You are darn good with people.I appreciate you .take care take it easy.
We all can be childish sometimes xo

*SiRibenMerah said...

just enjoy being urself..
kann??

happy always =)

Hannan said...

sue- hehe teresa la jugok

Hannan said...

Tq meen

Hannan said...

Mizzue- harGa minyak nAik lagi sakit kepla dr exam kot

Hannan said...

zura- thAnks dear-that's so sweet

MULAN said...

heya...lead your own life & just be yourself..

mummysyafie said...

just be urself nan..itu yg paling selamat..

nway..so far..akak tengok nan ok jer..budak yang baik (sambil usap kepala macam usap kepala kucing) hahahahahah....ampun..sbb sama kan ngan kucing..

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