Mother-in-law’s choice

A young man finds the woman of his dreams and asks her to marry him. He

tells his mother he wants her to meet his fiance, but he wants to make a
bit of a game out of it. He says he’ll bring the girl over with two other
women and see if his mother can guess which is the one he wants to marry.
His mother agrees to the game.

That night, he shows up at his mother’s house with three beautiful young
ladies. They all sit down on the couch, and everyone has a wonderful
evening talking and getting to know each other.

At the end of the evening, the young man asks his mother, ‘OK, Mom, which
one is the woman I want to marry?’

Without any hesitation at all, his mother replies, ‘The one in the middle.’

The young man is astounded. ‘How in the world did you figure it out?’

‘Easy,’ she says. ‘I don’t like her.’

the era is over???

we were called to a meeting with the hospital director a few weeks ago,
he was mentioning about the increasing numbers of doctors in malaysia for the past few years
and the number kept rising
due to the increasing numbers of doctors lately,
the issue that risen is - the quality of current doctors

yes, i hate to talk about it
but it's true

the quality of newly graduated doctors are very much debatable.
there are too many medical students graduating every years.
according to a reliable source, in malaysia nowdays,
each years, we are producing more than 2000 doctors ( including those who graduated from overseas university )

ok, that's quite a large number,

which is good to the citizen of malaysia
as there will be doctors everywhere ...
nowdays, there is no doctors working permenantly at local clinic,
only visiting doctors,
but in next few year, surely there will be...
and more benefit to the community

that's the good part
the not so GOOD part is...

according the ministry of health
based on current rate of doctors graduating every year.. ( about 2000 per year )

maybe... and i'm pretty sure about it ... starting 2012 ,the medical students who graduated ,
will NOT be guaranteed a place at the government hospital.
in short, u have to take ur turn to be a houseman.
so, u might be jobless for quite sometimes
not all of u... maybe some...

and to those graduating from overseas, regardless u are sponsored by the government..
u have to sit for a special exam before u'll be allowed to be a houseman at malaysian government hospital...

which i think... WOW... I just glad I'm already a doctor now.

all these new rules , is to make sure that only the best would serve the malaysian citizen...

so, the moral of the story here...
if u think by enrolling into medical school
and u'll be guaranteed a job in the future,
think twice.

try dentistry.
our country needs a lot of dentists.

and i'm not kidding about what i write in this entry

damn it JOM HEBOH

how i wish i'm not in kota bharu on this particular weekend

damn it "JOM HEBOH"

yes, kota bharu is such a small city
so, when this big event comes to the town...
the road will be congested...

the road in kota bharu is meant for such a small population of people.
currently, the jom heboh is happening at the state stadium
which is located in the middle of the kota bharu town
and what make it worse,
it's next to the HRPZ ll , the place where i work!

why cant they held this event somewhere far far away from the town..
damn it...
the traffic is killing me
i'm sure the people who work and live in kota bharu town felt the same way...

as time passes by...

i had my bad days..
and i guess, it's over.
i'm turning into a new page of life

shit happened, nothing can undo that
i'll just deal with it,
and try to get the best out of it

i was oncall yesterday.
i started the day with a prayer to Allah
I prayed to have a wonderful day
and I did.

yes, sometimes, we forgot that everything that happened to us,
come from God.
I'm very much forgotten about that lately

i had my series of unfortunate events.
but, as i think about it....
it wasnt that bad.
well, it was bad actually,
but then , here i am, still breathing..

the best thing to do when u feel bad about urselves,
just look around u, there are many more people who are more unfortunate compared to u.
some people live on the street, hoping for the passers by mercy to throw them some coins or foods...
when i think about it, i felt thankful that God still gave me the life i have rite now.

and, when u are successful,
we must remember , there are many more successful people out there,
and they are far richer and smarter than us...
that would take us back on the earth....

circle of life

behind those smiles,
u have no idea what lies beneath ...
the lady in the photo, her name "kak ayu"
she's the JM at the clinic,
helped me a lot,
thanks a lot kak ayu.

it has been a tough few days for me.
i was so stressed up lately.
so many problems, at yet, nothing has been solved so far.
i just cant focus at anything rite now..
my mind is flying away and away.

there was a time , i felt like i'm on the top of the world , a time when everything was great and wonderful
currently, i'm at the current opposite situation
in a very deep hole..
sigh.

even today at work, before i sat for my viva with the specialist,
a group of students, who just got their 9 a-ss in the spm - they were in the program called the "doktor muda "
the person incharge saw me sitting at the clinic, and she came to me and nicely asked me
" doctor, this is a group of students who are looking foward to be future doctors , and they would like to interview , asking how is it , being a doctor "

at that time, i was really stressed and tense coz i was about to seat for the viva ..
i told her " i cant, i'm very busy rite now, waiting for the specialist to screw me up.."
then i told the kids " guys.... dont be a doctor, u just might regret it later "

well, those are the things that i shouldnt have said
and i felt bad about it
sorry kids.

if i were at their place, and a doctor told me the same thing i told them...
i would be very demoralized to be a doctor...

hencefoward , i'm really sorry for what i did today.

it has not been the best day of my life
but i'm trying the best to survive.

bumblee bee no more

yes, no more racing line for bumble bee,
due to the technical error and the racing stripe had to be removed
and bumble bee got her old sleek and sexy look again.
when i left bumble bee to be polished and waxed ...
i got a call from my brother..
the black accord belong to him
2 shiny cars,
sob sob... it was a week ago...
today, something bad happened to bumble bee..
damn it..
and another brother with his red lady....
this car gonna be my wedding gift :)

i'm sorry bumble bee

well, i do not own this ferrari yet,
but maybe in the future..
and this is not the reason why i said i'm sorry to bumble bee.
coz i hurted her today..

i was oncall on friday, the this morning, i continue working..
then still doing some extra job at noon..
bla bla bla..
the point was, I was very tired..
and I my brain wasnt functioning at 100 percent capacity..
in short, i lost my focus when i was driving today.

so, bumble bee got hurt. not much, a little, i reckon
but the real cost is still unknown..
need to wait till tomorrow bumble bee meet her doctor...
hopefully it's repairable..
or else - bumble bee needs a new sets of wheels...

and that would mean more extra part time for me...

hormonal changes?

lately, i have become so hot tampered for very unknown reason
mmmm..
i'm used to be mr cool among my frens and in the ward..
but since i came back from district hospital,
things have changed a bit..
i dont know why

those who work with me, know that I'm very laid down and calm doctor..
( used to be very "kalut" one when i started )
but after a while, i manage to be smart in doing my job.
i hardly scolded other, and I'm a very nice doctor to nurses and patients

nonetheless, for the past few days,
i became so easily irritated....
i dont know why...

maybe the medical posting is taking its toll on me..
it's the most stressful posting ...
no denial on that

to all my friend...pls bear with me until i finished my medical posting.

bye bye hospital kuala krai

well, my short "holiday" at hospital kuala krai has ended...
it was such a lovely short period spent there..
gosh..how i wish the bloody GH could be as "calm" as those district hospital...

I would say that district hospital is kinda a relaxing..
definitely suit my need
but , the problem is , u wont learn much , working at the small hospital
as most of the problematic cases are being referred to the GH...

in a way, it's good for ur social life,
but professionally, it's bad.

I somehow pretty much considering to work at the district hospital later on,
before i persue my master...
yes..

listen everyone..
i reckon I want to further my study to be a specialist....
plastic surgeon is no 1 on the list..
i once said to all my fren that i would just be happy being a doctor
and someday open my own small private clinic...
but then...
i'm still young..
i might as well try to be a surgeon..
if i failed..
then we'll do the plan b...

what lies beneath

everybody has problem..
big problems, small problems....
these are the things that keep everyone going

for certain people, the just cant hide their problems... u can even see it as it were written on their forehead.
for some, they are very secretive about their problem...

some problem, it's better for u to keep it to urselves, the rest - u might consider telling others coz u need other people help to settle them..

it's just a part of life. technically, there's no man on earth who has no problem at all.
but we are so used of using the 2 words " no problemo! "

funny as it is....

we did the best we could..

today, has not been the best day of my life...
when I started doing my morning round at the medical ward today...
my specialist came to me... and she came very early today..
and she said "I'm so sad..."
I asked her, what's wrong? , she replied.. " the little girl is dead"

I was shocked to death...

a few days ago, a little girl, - was brought to the emergency room with severe shortness of breath plus other sign and symptom , - she's a known case of SLE, who defaulted follow up and treatment with multiple history of admission to ward...

... due the severity of her condition , she was intubated and she was admitted to ICU, where she received the best treatment we could provide.

nonetheless, the SLE has effected other organs, the kidneys were failing.. the heart.. the lungs... all pretty much not functioning they way they should be...

But, God does work in very mysterious way...
after 2 days in ICU, she got better.. the condition improved...
she was able to open her eyes again but still intubated..

and seeing her condition improving, we decided to sent her to GH for further management...
and I was the one who accompanied her all the way to the GH..
all the doctors here were very happy about her improvement..
and we were hoping she would get even better...

along the journey from my hospital to GH , she looks happy even thou she was still intubated..
the vital signs were normal thru out the journey... there were no problem at all..
I was doing the manual bagging all by myself ... never even let the nurse to take over... even thou it was very tiring...

when we reached there, at the GH, I passed over the case to the specialist in charge..
she was stable at the time.. and before i left, i went to her to say good bye, and smiled and blinked her eyes twice...
i told her, i'll see u when u get better...

and that was the last time i saw her face..

this morning, i received the news, she passed away last night at GH..

living a good life...

being a government medical officer, we do not earn much,
our salary is as much as a degree holder primary school teacher...
enuf to pay for the car loan.. the house rent.... and daily groceries..
and not much is left after that..

not that I'm complaining about that..
but it's the truth that happening in our country...

people expect doctors earn a lot , compared to other government servant...
unfortunately that's a myth

and maybe... what makes some doctors look rich is because..
there were at work 24/ 7... and they have no time to spend the money they earned..

but still... those only happened to doctors who live at quaters, have no car, and no family..

so, the lesson we learned today...
if u want to be rich as soon as u graduated..
dont be a doctor..

Emang Dasar!!!

currently I'm so crazy about this band.. WaliBand..
new phenomenom from indonesia..
they started off with the most famous "cari jodoh" song..

but one song from their album that really attract me the most..
which is I'm currently listening to it at this very moment... emang dasar..
this particular song really make me lough out loud...

i just bought the vcd today, and i first listened to the song in my car earlier..
and I have to say, the song writer is really a genius...
damn.. it's such a catchy.... kick ass and a slap in the face song for all the bajingan out there..
heheheh..
my short attachment to Hospital Kuala Krai is coming to the end...
damn.. I wish I could stay there longer
hated to go back to GH...
but, as a good government slave..
i'll be back working at Hospital Kota bharu somewhere next week...
damn it...

the best ideal place for me to work would be the local clinic at pengkalan chepa..
nearby my house and I could be my own boss there..

not like @ GH..
there were like thousand of bossessss
and u have to please every single of them....

the vacation i needed...

it had been a stressful months for me..
i needed a bloody vacation.. i've been working very hard..
non stop..
hospital.. clinic... my shop..
and it's very tiring..
it's draining every single drop of energy in my body..
i was dying to have a quick break..
just a quick getaway..
i managed to squeezed sometimes for it..
a very short holiday..
but meaningful..
i've done a lot of thinking.
currently, i'm doing a few jobs at one time..
well, at one hand.. it's good for me.
but , on the other side... health wise... family wise - it's killin me softly...

so, i decided , for the timebeing..
i might have to let go a few things in my life..
things that i wish i could keep doing..
but , my life is more precious than i ever thought..
hence... some have to go..
in order for me to cheerish the moment..

well, not bad huh..

well, they said... if u think nobody cares about u... try missing out a couple of car payments ...

and if u think ppl not reading ur blog.. try to write an obvious mistake..

i've been away for the weekend..
no time to update the blog..
but will write about my beautiful journey later..

and of course.. miscarriage means abortion before 20 weeks of gestation...

thanks for the comments and keep reading ...dear colleagues..

a complaint...

our last photo together, JPA sponsored MD RSMU moscow, batch 2002-2008

the photo above has nothing to do with this entry anyway,
but this photo is very sentimental to me, and my friends too, I'm sure..

Anyway,
i received a call from a friend today,
his wife , currently pregnant - 38 weeks - had episode of PV - vaginal bleeding
so, i advised him to bring his wife to the hospital to find out the cause of the bleeding,
it could have be the placenta previa or worst.. miscarriage..

so, taken my advice, he brought his wife to the hospital and the doctors there had done all the necessary investigation and the doctors decided to induce the labour ... i'm not sure the real cause of the pv bleeding, not much detail on that..

nonetheless, my friend decided to choose not to induce the labour - which is against the doctor advise.. which i told him it's for the best to follow what the doctor said...

so, in between choosing to be discharged , there were a little arguement btwn the husband and the doctor in charge. Definitely the doctor incharge was frustrated when patient decided to do against doctor advice... and the husband persistantly want to bring the wife back home and decided to wait for the labour naturally...

when he reached home, he asked me either he made the right decision or not.. i said it's ur wife.. and he said he was a bit upset about how the doctor handle the situation... nonetheless, he asked me to say sorry to the dr in charge coz he was a bit rude back then during the arguement..
i said it's ok.. it happened everyday.
of course, he as the husband was very stressed having to make the decision ..
and the doctor aslo was very stressed... well.. coz dr always stressful!

i told him, it's ok. we doctors, dealed with thousand of patients.. and there were a lot of arguement happened.. and between those arguement, there were things being said - which are not supposed to be said...
nonetheless, we are all human, we made mistake..
so, the next best thing we could do is to forgive and forget..
and let's do it all over again tomorrow...
life is a crazy cycle...

it's not what u think

me... early in the morning at kuala krai..
i'm currently enjoying my life as a doctor in kuala krai hospital..
definitely a different enviroment from the busy n crazy general hospital like hospital kota bharu...
the only downside of my current job at kuala krai is that.. the travelling..
the amount of time i spent driving everyday coz i live in kota bharu...
the kuala krai town is pretty much dead...
no p1 wimax connection there...
and the restaurants.. and the cafe there... are horrible..
the food is just unacceptable.., sorry to say that.
those living in kuala krai, please show me a place that serve good meals..
most of the time i ended up eating at kfc
coz the local cafes are such a disappointment.

nonetheless, the people there are very nice.
the hospital staffs are wonderful people..
always with a big smile..
and the patients... there are very grateful to see doctors...
unlike most patients living in the cities..
who treat doctors like their servant...
as if they are paying the whole cost of treatment at the government hospital....
sorry to bring this matter up...

and here, i finally able to appreciate myself for being a doctor...
back at the GH... with the crappy salary ... we were treated no difference from the garbage collector..
here in district hospital.. we finally have a piece of dignity back...

my valentine

while most of the single men and ladies in the world were busy celebrating valentine day, buying fresh roses , exchanging fancy gifts , having romantic candlelight dinner - I was busy doing my routine stuff ... was at the clinic , serving the community and earning some money to buy my lunch .... and maybe a bungalow someday.

so, that pretty much summarize my valentine day. but between my hectic schedule at the clinic, i managed to squeezed a few hours to attend my friend's wedding. It was nazman and adani glorious and happy day. congratulation guys, u r now husband and wife. till debt to u apart... opppss.. till death...
as i looked around during the ceremony, most of my friends are married. half of them already have kids..... and grandchildren... hehe. occay, too much. maybe 1-2 kids. then I start to think, when I'm getting marry..... and the thought lasted for about 30 secs... and i need to get back to work again. the biggest problem was, I think I'm still young... not ready yet to pull the plug as I have to gain a lot of thing before I hand in the ring...
but then, as think about it...
there's to much to achieve... and it will take more than a lifetime go gain all that...
which means, if i stick to my current plan, i might not get married at all..
damn...

my kuala krai...

well, another episode of my life at kuala krai..
heheh..
occay, this is my bloody quaters... ugly as it is..
and it's very small.

so far, what do i think about hospital kuala krai?

it's freakin HOT.. i mean the weather.. the hospital is located on the hill..
and i think it's about 45-50 degrees celcius burning hot during afternoon...

well, considering it's winter in kelantan rite now..
snow is falling in kota bharu and pasir puteh..
the weather there is just outrageous!

heheh..
but i love working at hospital kuala krai..
something new..
a bit relaxing..
the people are nicer..

it's a good place to be..

let's go bumblebee

another day at work at kuala krai..
need to wake up early in the morning ...
mmm..
maybe tonite i'll just stay at kuala krai coz i'm working on friday morning..
well... we'll see..
i'll just bring my stuff together..
what the heck, let's just stay there tonite..
we'll see what kuala krai has in store for me..
i'm sure there is a rum jungle there..
or "loft" ...
or at least zeta bar...