can u drive this fast....

i was driving my mum perodua kancil e class avantgarde just now
didnt realize i was speeding so fast on my way to the market to by coconut milk
seriouly?
can ur kancil do this - running at 160km/h ... and the RPM is only 3000 round per minute
or less in this case
hehehehhe
my mom really knows how to mods her cars
maybe she secretly put an audi tt rs engine inside the kancil
yeah ... the 2.0 TFSI engine
should do the trick :)

Black market dolphin

when I was a kid, my friend wanted to be an astronaut when we grow up... And I want to sell dolphin at the black market , but thing didn't work out well for me, as I live in atlanta... No dolphin there and those things don't sleep... Makes them hard to catch

Just finished watching the movie "changed up"
Love Ryan reynold .. Awesome guy, great actor
And the movie itself was wonderful.
It was about 2 guys who wished they could have each other's life instead of their current ongoing life
Which is not so wierd... Coz be honest everyone .. Sometimes, u do imagine u r in somebody else shoes rite ?
And eventually... In the movie , those 2 bastard realize... Their current actual life- is just what they needed

Yup... Lesson learned everyone .
It's hard to appreciate what we already have
And we only start to regret it once we lose it. Hence... Cherish the moment occay.
Good night everyone

choosing the rite one.

owh  , just look at her cute little face...
despite all the crying...
waking us all night long...
sometimes she is acting worse than a woman with PMS
all of those stuff
are quickly forgotten when u stare at her glittering little eyes

today is her day 5 of life
growing up fast she is

and daddy has a lot to do for her
need to set up her education fund
her health insurance
her tabung haji fund
her ASB fun

want to make sure her future is bright and well taken care of

nonetheless
this is my first child
and i definitely need some guidance before starting all these fund
it would not be a problem if i have unlimited wealth
unfortunately i dont

hencefoward ,
my dear reader..
any suggestion on which one is the best health insurance
clearly i am not a master in this area
ur advice is very much welcome :)
kindly share ur experience k
thanks a lot in advance

precious princess

her favorite sleeping position...
very " manja" with daddy
always needs daddy to hug her before she sleeps

never mention that daddy went out
should she know daddy is not around.
she will cry out loud
but will be back smiling when daddy comes back

owh , what a sweet little princess
she makes me smile everyday
she makes my heart grows
never thought being a daddy bring so much happiness to me :)

baby , i love u till the end ;)
and mommy too of course
heheehe

currently mummy is busy trying to lose her excess weight gained during the pregnancy
but no worry mommy
once the milk start producing in large amout
u'll get back ur slim figure
and can start wearing all ur size 0 dress again

what's daddy doing?
daddy is doing his best to makes his beloved princesses happy
and smiling all day long :)

already at day 4 of her life
my daughter is doing very well
very active
crying out loud when we are changing her diapers
feeding well
the jaundice is reducing

dear parents
should ur infant not feeding well
less active , more sleep and has weak cry
it's a sign that ur baby might has an infection

i pray to God that my baby will grow up healthy and beautifully...
ameen ...
and urs too of course :)

when daddy meets gegirl

 daddy  : canteknyee baby daddy ni...
gegirl    : i want milk....
daddy  : i love u soooo much gegirl....
gegirl   : where's my milk.....
daddy : ur eyes are so cuteeeeeeeeeeee....
gegirl  : helloooo??  anyone listening... i am hungry....
daddy : bile dah besar nanti .... jadi anak solehah k sayang....
gegirl  : owh my God... please call mommy.... i want milk daddy....
daddy : meh tito dengan daddy ...
gegirl  : milk first pleaseeeeeeeee .....
daddy : hidung gegirl macam hidung daddy la...
gegirl  : bla bla bla bla..... yea yea yea....
daddy : mmmmuuaaahhh muaaaahhh muaaahh... kiss kiss baby manjer ni....
gegirl  : uuuuuuuuuuuuwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa uuuuwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
daddy : ooooo baby nak susu yer....
gegirl : oowhhh... for crying out loud... finally dad!
daddy : occay occay... milk is coming...
gegirl :   occay occay.... i dont care whether u r wearning armani or gucci.... am still gonna puke on u daddy... get ready yeah

gegirl and avent

any avent sales representative out there?
u seriously need to consider giving us special gift here
me and my wife ( mostly her! )
have bought everything that AVENT has to sell
u name it.. we got it

and thankfully , all of these stuff has been very useful to our little princess
prior to the pregnancy
i have no bloody idea what AVENT is
pretty much sound like HKS  , Greedy  ,
u know... the car stuffs
unfortunately it's not
but it does cost quite the SAME thou

NOT cheap at all

when my mother saw all these stuff
she was like.... " owh my God "...
" membazir jer ni , during my time ... we do everything manually "

well mama ... it's different nowdays...
during ur time ... the petrol costed rm 1.2o per liter ...
nowdays.. ron 97 costs double than that...
ehehhehee...


just kidding mom... no hard feeling
i was  a stranger to all these thing too
i thought tonmee tippee has something to do with tommy hilfiger
until i saw it comes in small boxes

funny as it is...

gegirl - day 3 of life

look at her cute face....
just being breast fed this morning
a bit jaundice as her mother still struggling to produce enough milk
but i am pretty convince she'll be ok when more breast milk available

parenting - so far it has been very tiring for both of us
last night again - baby girl kept us busy
she was ok during day time...
was sleeping well
but after midnite - here comes the drama

i reckon she has a bit abdominal discomfort
bowel opening becomes so frequent last night
more breast milk should fix the problem

since the mother has not been producing enough breast milk
we opted for soy based formula milk for stand in replacement
until the breast milk production increase

nevertheless - despite all the sleepless night for both of us
we could nt care less
all we want is our baby girl turn out healthy and beautiful in the end of the day

my gegirl

day 2 of life
my beloved princess... my gegirl..

well , i guess at some point of my life , this blog will change its name to dr hannan fatherhood

thank you for all the warm wishes guy,
then comes the next fav question
"how's life as a father "
well... so far..  hhhmmmm
pretty much indescribable

but on top of everything.. i feel very happy and very much excited

yes - it's tiring as well
truth was... for the past 72 hours...
i reckon i slept less than 10 hours

a day before my wife went to labour ...
i was oncall.. hence.. there was very little sleep there
the next day , i went back home , rested for a while,
then when to the gym in the evening...
after that , while i was at the clinic at night ...
she went into active phase of labour..

from the clinic , i rushed to the labour room
it was about 11pm when she was admitted to the labour room.
gegirl was born at 340 am the next day ...
and i was awake thru out the processes

6 hours later , we went back home.
i was thankful everything went well
and my baby and my beloved wife were healthy and doing great along the way

at home... last nite my gegirl was sleeping well during day time
but after midnite .... she kept us busy until dawn...
since mommy still struggling with breastfeeding...
she was pretty much hungry last night .. hence
we both didnt much rest or sleep

nevertheless
things are getting better today
gegirl is feeding well
less crying
but she's very active :)
let's see how she's reacting tonite yeah?

mmmmmmmmmm...
WHAT's her name?
it will be keep as a secret until her 7th day of life

but everyone is invited to guess the "secret" name...
hehehe....
wondering eh/?

purest of pain

my baby girl... welcome to the world
thank you Allah .
alhamdulillah
the delivery went well with the help of epidural
thank you to Dr Razita for the epidural
and staff nurse Lim for assisting me delivering my own baby

such a wonderful day for both of us
well.. not both anymore... now it's three of us

weighing 2.8 kg at birth
she brought such a joy and happiness to the family
she took away all the pain
she makes me thinking of home every single second
(no offence my darling wife - u have the same aura too ! )

thank you all for the well wishes
thank you ...

if u live nearby .. u r invited to our baby aqiqah ceremony next friday

it's been bugging me

gosh..
had a hectic day at work so far today
very problematic cases today
i wish i am not in charge of the Operating room today...
unfortunately .. i am

nonetheless... everything still turns out fine eventually
above everything... i hope and pray there will be no mortality

i love being a doctor
currently i am a part of the anaesthetist team
it's the same like special task force team in the police department
or the komandos in the army
we deal with life and death situation everyday
we r in charge of the ICU
we r in charge of the operating theater
we put people to sleep ... and we have to wake them up as well
it's a very demanding job...
and it's killing me

i love saving life
it's a noble job
but then.
sometimes... i feel so tired
and stressful....
i wish i could be in charged of something more stationary
like a klinik kesihatan
where i work 8 to 5 everyday
it's a good life
yes... there are death cases in klinik kesihatan as well
but only once in the blue moon.

nonetheless , there is something special that keep me staying at the anaesthesia department
the people ...
the bosses ... my collague ... they are the best people ,
the nicest group of human being u want to be around with
they cheered u up when u r down
they stand by u when u screwed up
the helping there is always next to u
it felt like a family in the anaesthesia department
unlike other department i work before
that's the main reason that keep me from leaving the hospital...

yet and still...
i have my doubt..
despite of all great people around me..
am i able to be a good anaesthetist,,
and how long could i hold my breath here....

guys .... help me out here

                                                    honda CRZ - hybrid , manual transmission

                                                      pug 308 turbo

                                                      mini cooper S

 

these 5 hot hatches are running on my mind right now
as u all know
i am selling my beloved mitsubishi lancer GT
yes - need something smaller
something more fuel economic
in these hard time , need to save as much as possible
and it's impossible for me to travel without style!

hence , i am having a hard time choosing
which one will be my first hot hatch

the cheapest would be the ford fiesta ... around 80k...
pretty looking- sexy and reasonable price
but there are too many of them on the road now
i love the sapphire version but they are not selling those anymore
it would be the perfect choice - but it's very common nowdays

then comes the newly launched hybrid car - honda CRZ
hybrid - meaning great fuel saving,
price is about 115k on the road  - which is cheaper than i expected it to be...
but then...the downside is..
currently in malaysia - honda is selling manual transmission
which is not very convinient to my other half...
so... probably no for crz until they bring the auto version

3rd choice .... vw polo GTI
great car.. super fast hatch back...
the fastest among all..
the most handsome looking...
superb built quality...
price- 138 k.... still affordable..
but -  no vw official dealer in kelantan
meaning... no vw service center
meaning ... i have to drive to KL to service it...
which ... i dont really have time for that...
what a shame... come on vw... open ur 3S in kelantan pls....

MINI COOPER ....
the old time fav
my other half surely love it
fast , pretty , durable..... kinky...
nevertheless..
have the same issue with vw..
where do i service my car here?
no BMW official dealer in kelantan as well
plus... among all 5, this is the most expensive...
unless i buy the recond one.... mmmmmm


lastly ...
my last choice would be the PUG 308 turbo
well... let me state here..
i love paris a lot ( been there twice )
i love french fries, i love french kiss
but...PUG.... mmmmm
it's a powerful car... turbo..
quite sleek as well..
but , should i decided to sell it one day later...
the second hand value is tremendously unbelievably cheap
but... it's a good car should i want to drive it for the rest of my life
and there are plenty of PUG 3 S center in kelantan... no hassle...

sigh...... help me guys.!

" i have HIV ... 10 years already "

" i know my husband was diagnosed as HIV positive 10 years ago .... but i never tell the doctors or anyone else... including my children " says the wife....

BLOOODY HELLLL.....

this is the second case of the year i stumbled upon in the ICU.
it irked me a lot.

DEAR citizen.... if u have HIV - do tell ur doctors , who treat you . it will our life way a lot easier and better.

A study show , in a profesional life of doctors  who deal with patients everyday , the risk of getting HIV from the patients is about 1 percent.
Meaning.... if a doctor treats 100 HIV patients ... he's pretty much unlucky if he's not HIV positive as well.

Yeah , we must treat all patient equally ...
but doctors are human too, we are not bullet prove of AIDS.
we could easily being infected by patients.
we took blood everyday , we operate on patients everyday

imagine , if those people who has HIV , keep their HIV status as a secret...
and one unlucky day ... a doctor accidently had a needle prick incident with that patient...
how would u feel if that doctor is a member of ur family.
doctor is a noble job
we treat people
but SHIT people are HIV positive and did nt tell us... make our job so dangerous!

worse ... it's a waste a money to treat HIV positive patient
they are pretty much immune depressed... all the drugs in the world can heal them...
what a waste a money....

again please ... HIV positive people... make sure u inform other ur status.
we doctors need to know ur status.
ur spouse need to know ur status
ur children need to know ur status...

u being a HIV positive patient is enough problem for us...
do not infect other ... those innocent people..
especially us.. doctors who do noble job to save people

we do have our way to treat u guys.
just lets us know occay...
please pretty please..!

doctor.... i want to abort my baby.....

while i was anxiously waiting for the birth of my baby .... anytime soon...
a reader contacted me..
asking me about abortion

i promised her that i wont tell anyone about it
nevertheless - i am writing this issue , generally...
not mentioning her name
and nothing about her...

i just want people to be crystal clear about abortion.
i believe this is a very important issue....
and believe it or not... abortion is quite common in malaysia
worse case... among Malay which are muslims.
what a shameful true fact.....

firstly - being a muslim... Islam said abortion is haram....
meaning... if u aborted ur baby intentionally... technically u will end up in hell.
as simple as that
unless being pregnant is dangerous for the mother, then - abortion is permitted
( example - mother with severe heart problem )

secondly - as a doctor , we are not permitted to do abortion for social reason
we are trained to do abortion
but only for medical causes
those doctors who do illegal abortion - they could be charged and their certificate could be rebuffed

yet and still , there are many muslims out there who do illegal abortion for social reason
and sadly , there are doctors whom morally degraded - willing to do abortion....
i call those doctors stupid assholes and jerk....
how i wish the government could charge those who do illegal abortion with death penalty!!!

there are so many social reason given by the mother  , whom decided for abortion....
most common .. those unmarried pregnant ladies  with " anak luar nikah "
then , there are also young mother whom are married ... but not ready to be a mother yet...
all these reason are bull shit...
berani buat.. berani tanggung...

no social reason is legit enough to permit an abortion...
it's legally wrong..
and most importantly.. ISLAM forbid it... and i do believe other religions say the same thing....

sexuality malaysia ...... another bull shit!!!

"sexuality malaysia - it's a clear cut for me whom will i vote for this coming election.... not u ambiga.... unless nik aziz pulls out PAS from keadilan... then i'll have my dilemma... until then... i am not in agreement with the liberty of gay n lesbian"

 

that is my current facebook status

frankly , i am not into politics. for crying out loud  , i wish i could stay away from politic. but i cant  , it's a part of everyone life

and being a voter is must ( wajib ) hence , either i like it or not ... i have to choose side

all the while , i keep silence about our malaysian political issue. The drama that has been going on in the parliement sometimes make me yawned and  most of the times , it irks me a lot 

I know , it aint easy being a politician and someone has to do it , or else who will govern our country rite? And all the politicians try their best to win the heart of the citizen to make sure they always on top of the pyramid. U have to do , what u have to do ... we all get it

but then , a lot of issue came to rise lately ... bersih... kotor... jijik... whatever it is... makes me wonder

not saying i am a big fan of the government - neither i am a big fan of ambiga

but , when something like bersih happened the other day ... what good brings to us?

what changes has been made? BN still rules the country.. The only thing we managed to do is to scare away the tourist from KL. Job well done. 

Yes.. bersih was the voice of rakyat.. we all get it... but i honestly think... the manner was wrong. If all the malaysian hate BN so much ... just prove it during the election. NO bloody way BN could changes the voting paper should all malaysian voted for the opposition rite? BN may have the power ... but not that much.

and here we are again.... sexuality merdeka? ambiga.. what the heck are u trying to do..  ? what's next ambiga...?? turned kl into cairo? ? 

i used to think that opposition party have some brains and they are a group of smart people who will transform the country , but with ambiga in the opposition party ... hell NO ... will never vote for them

and nik aziz... please pull out PAS away from the keAdilan... i have too much respect for tok guru nik aziz... i agreed with him on everything... but he should realize that ambiga isnt a friend...

hardest thing

well....
it never came across my mind before that i am writing this post
i am letting go something i love a lot
yes - i am selling my red bumble bee... my viva la vida
my second wife... my girlfriend... u name it....

it's the hardest thing to do
but somehow...
i am letting it go....

not that i am very desperate to sell this car
only will sell it at the right price
pls email me if u are interested
for serious buyer only...

some specification about my bumble bee
- mitsubishi lancer 2.0 GT year 2008
- accident free , good condition
- 18 inch sport rims
- eibach springs
- 4 HID lamps
- PIONEER sound system and speaker  worth 10K ( DVD , divx player , usb , miniSD )
- iphone compactible
- reverse camera
- double exhaust
- full service record at mitsubishi 3S center
- gold tinted

i am pretty much crying inside while writing this
i just hope the next owner will treat her well :)

email me at hannanyusof@gmail.com

i am sorry i yelled at u ...

yes...
I am sorry I yelled at u
it was a jerk reflex situation
but i do have my reason

had a little situation at the pharmacy earlier today
not something i am proud of
since it happened in front of a lot of people
well... those people actually agreed with me...

i was taking a few medicine for my beloved granny
whose having problem with her heart..
and she was on the medication for like forever

so today i went to the pharmacy to take the meds as usual
not for the first time..

i went in  , and gave the medication slip to the person in charged at the counter

apparently  , according to the slip , it written there i should be collecting the medication
a week earlier ...
and here the problem started

the lady said - i should be collecting the meds exactly on time
should i miss the bloody date
i need a new slips

and then ... i politely said " it was just a simple issue... a week is not such a big issue "

then the lady replied  " i am sorry sir ...  ( not realising i am a doctor ) ... the rules said so... u missed the date u need to get a new slip "

that got my blood boiling ...

" please be reasonable ... i am a doctor .. i am a staff here ... please be considerate ... i could have go and write another slip for the meds , but i dont have the luxury to go walking around the hospital as i have a lot of patient to attend " i replied

but she still insisting not giving me the meds ..

" call ur superior " i said

then came one older lady ... telling me same answer... NO.. and she was nt even a pharmacist ... just an assistant..

it makes me so pissed of at that very moment

" u know what lady.... yesterday ... one of ur staff brother had an accident ... and he suffered so many injury and required icu management and ventilator ... however no ICU bed available at time in our hospital... and u know what i do for ur STAFF? I arranged him to be transferred to KPJ perdana - all FREE -  , even thou i could have let him stay and died in the ward since we have no icu available...
and u here...( being so SUPERIOR even thou ur grade is far lower than me - i didnt say this part )
is making a fuss about me being late for a bloody week? "


and she was all red ... and i am sorry all other patients waiting at the pharmacy has to hear that

she quickly get the meds for me ..
and i said thank you

well..
in the end of the day...
we all are hospital staff
our main priority is patient's life
my granny is also a patient
so does the young man i sent to KPJ perdana
i did my best for my patient
and i supposed she could be more sensible .....

sendiri kena.... baru tau

my medical leave is coming to the end
i went for tonsilectomy about a week ago
it was an elective procedure
something ..... i just do to improve my quality of life

my tonsil has been treating me very bad lately
it has been infected for a few times
and been admitted twice for acute tonsilitis

those were awful situation
and eventually
i decided to remove it
hence,  no more tonsilitis if i have no tonsil
yeah...
sound very easy
throw it away ,
and i ll get a better life

some said..  " if it is not broken... no need to fix it "
in my case... it was half broken
i could live with my tonsil intact
but it will cause me more trouble in the future
after a long discussion with myself....
... tonsilectomy was my final decision....

HOW was the operation?
well... it went well
not much complication
but the post operation pain was very severe
it hurt so much
the first thing i said as soon as i woke up from the anaesthesia...
" owh my God... i wouldnt go for the operation if i knew it hurt this much"
and the surgeon was laughing out loud .... while saying... " i told u so...."

yes.... i heard , and i knew tonsilectomy is very much hurtful
worse in adult
but i never thought it was that hurtful...
it was such a scary situation for me
such a horrible condition post op..
the pain was very severe.....

sigh,,,

tonsilitis - part 1

i was unwell
my tonsil was once again being infected by crazy bacteria
story of my life

i have been sick for quite few times this year
all , thanks to my beloved tonsil,
the bloody culprit

until this time - i didnt realize the tonsil was the mastermind
for all my unwell being lately

i reckon i got the infection while i was doing locum
yeah ,
at hospital
we use full protection ,
mask ... scrubs , hands sanitizer ...
all those thing which keep the bacteria and virus away
but then
during locum
i dont really wear a mask
since patient who pay to see the doctor
most of them would love to see the doctor's face

so , during my previous locum
i have a few patients with urti
some quite severe
and i reckon... there was the source of my acute on chronic tonsilitis

how do u know u have tonsilitis?
well ,... to start with... u have to have a pair of tonsil! ( lots of kid had them removed during school age )

it started with the symptoms..
sore throat....
then u started to have fever...
in my case... very bad fever .. my temperature went up to 39.5 degree celcius...
and accompanied by severe chills and rigor....
not to be forgotten... the common feature such as body weakness and headache...

worst case scenario happened to me...
i was oncall the night when my temperature was at 39.5 ...
and i was having crazy chills and rigor inside the ot that time...

as the condition worsening..
u could feel something sitting inside ur upper respiratory tract
something big... and it caused a lot of pain in ur throat
i would say , it felt like having  a cactus at the base of ur tongue
yeah... exactly felt that way..

then,..
u will have difficulty in swallowing food...
which eventually cause u dehydrated..
u lips become dry... so does ur skin
as u take orally less , since the throat has obstruction in it....

,,,,,, to be continued in part 2

i was in dilemma

and again...
a long absence from this blogging world...

but still.. i am back
still in raya mood
wishing everyone a happy hari raya

truth was -
i was in dilemma
i have been thinking hard lately...
last few days
consulting a lot of people

and i reckon i have my decision
a right one i hope

i have been working at the hospital ( GH) for quite sometimes
and i am telling u ,
i'm grateful and happy to be able to serve the people
it was my honour to treat the unfortunate
it was a wonderful moments to save plenty of lifes
and i was very glad

nevertheless
all of those - it is very tiring
and very exhausting

i want to take a rest for a while from all these adrenaline rush
i want to take a break..
being an anaesthetist in such a busy hospital...
is taking its toll on me.

maybe it's time for me to go somewhere else
somewhere more quite
somewhere i can work with not so dying patient
somewhere where i dont have to see people die everyday.

i have decided to ask for transfer.

and i know...
my anaesthetist knowledge and skill will be go to waste once i work at small clinic
but i need a fresh air

...................

to be continued....
mmmm

working on aidil fitri

salam aidilfitri
ampun maaf di pinta
zahir dan batin.

it has been a wonderful 29 days for fasting
and now it's time for celebration
a day of joy and togetherness

for most people , yes.
but for some
they do have to work
i was lucky   , having a lot of non muslim working in the same department
hence all the muslim could have day off during aidil fitri

still, there are many muslims out there who has to work during this blessful day
in a perfect world , i wish i could shut down the hospital during hari raya hence
all the staff could celebrate hari raya with their beloved family
nevertheless - we live in a not so perfect situation
there are sick patients everyday
there are people who need  emergency surgery while others are performing raya prayer
there are unfortunate people who need icu care while others are eating lemang and ketupat

for all of these situation
a lof of people need to sacrifice their happiness
to save other people life
this is happening for not only hospital staff
same goes to policemen , fire fighters and others.

and yes - for all this sacrifices - at least a patient could do , or the relative could do is - say thank you

- which rarely said by them
and we dont really expecting those actually
but for goodness sake
at least - do not complain much and being very fussy during this day

i had experience the situation...
and a lot of my work mate encountered the same problems too...
the patients n relatives been complaining a lot
especially during hari raya...
someone is sick ,
the whole family went to emergency department
and everyone start complaining when the doctor didnt attend them immediately

please understand during hari raya - we dont have enough staff
only oncall doctors are working
same goes to staff nurses and medical assistants
hence , for non life threatening cases
u may not be attended ASAP if there are other near death situation around
the least u could do is say thank you to the doctor who left her or his family
to treat people during hari raya.....