days of our life

People lie, everyone lies. In my life, I lied so many times, and most of the times, I lied because I have to. Sometimes, it's much better to live in world of lies, rather than to face the truth - in every moment in ur life. Why? becoz the truth hurts. When the truth appeared, even the biggest lie in the world could do nothing about it. I choosed to lie, I choosed to being lied, - it makes me feel better, even thou i know, it's just a lie. Truth, most of the times, is unbearable, and it's hard to deal with....

I had a tough day today. I try to lie to myself to makes me feel better. I laughed in front of my frens, trying to conceal my true feeling. I wish I never know the truth. I wish, I'll just keep living in my fantasy castle, built by blocks of lies - cemented by denial. Still, no matter how much i try, even the smallest truth in the world the size of a needle, could destroy the castle, just like that... just like that...

I'm not blaming anyone. It's my fault after all. One, should never lied at first place. If u do lied, prepared to face the truth...