al fatihah

Al-Fatihah to tina & kak yan's family. Their father had passed away this evening. It was a very sad news and I could feel the pain too. God loves him more. Therefore , they all will be leaving back to Malaysia tomorrow - I pray for their safe journey back home.

The day started with lots of sunshine today. Me n shida decided to visit tina after signing some documents at the university since we have nothing much to do and we wanted to take some boxes from their house. But then, half way journey to their apartment - it started to rain and the rain drops were unusually bigger.

But then, the rain stopped after a while and we safely reached tina's house. Adam was asleep when we reached but he woke up not long later. Then I decided to take him to the park. As usual, adam was so excited he just cant sit still , he kept running around , throwing the ball , climbing the ladder , sliding , digging the sand ... all sort of kid's stuff. After a while - I took him to the swing and he really enjoyed himself having a good ride on the swing. When he was on the swing, he just looked straight foward and he was pretty much speechless thru out the ride.

10 mins later, I asked adam " jom.... adam.. go home " but, he refused to get down from the swing. I just smile and continue moving the swing and let's adam flies into his imagination . Not so long after that, he suddenly said " jom.. jom.." I was suprised. He rarely stopped by himself. I took him down from the swing and then he hold my hand - we walk back to the apartment.

Back in the apartment , as we were having dinner - kak yan received the bad news. It was a shock. Luckily adam and damia are still too little to understand all the pain and sadness. I was speechless. I have no experience dealing with this kind of situation. I really dont know what to say. I'm bad at this. My deepest condolence to kak yan n family.
Kak Yan, tina, adam and damia are going back to Malaysia tomorrow. Tomorrow maybe my last time to see them. They'll be back in Malaysia for quite a while. I'm gonna miss them a lot , especially adam. He's like my own brother.

If I could have one wish for my bday , I wish I could spend more time with adam n family. But then, they have better task at home. I cant stop them. Family is way more important.

Shida is staying at their house for tonite. I wanted to stay too , but then - I just cant. I can't see adam's face. I could feel my tears running down when he ran towards me just now. Everytime I left their house I could here adam was crying behind the closed door. I quickly left their apartment just now coz I know, should I stay any longer - my tears will start running in front of everyone.

Tomorrow, I'm gonna close the door for the last for adam n family. It's a very sad feeling...

To tina n kak yan ... my biggest condonlence... be strong occay. To adam - be a good boy ! listen to ur mom! Maybe 25 years later , when I walk into the hospital , I'll meet a new young doctor name adam mukhriz....